Nature essay for comp 2

so this is an extremely rough draft. the citations are not correct at all and there is no reference page. i suck at writing in my opinion and would love to hear feed back from anyone out there that may have some ideas how i make this better. again the citations are extremely wrong, but i hope it is clear what i took from sources and what is my own. one thing to note is this is a casual essay. i just got my copy back from the instructor i guess i did not really give a cause and effect. also i was told i do not have a thesis, which i anticipated. i thought i did it through the whole party thing and its our fault but maybe it wasnt clear enough i can fix that though. 

Robin Williams once said, ” Spring is nature’s way of saying ‘Let’s party'”. Maybe he didn’t say that, maybe he did but that sounds like something he would say. But what happens if spring never comes? Is that nature’s way of telling us the party is over?

Right now, the party is still going, but nature, she is sitting there looking at the clock just waiting to yell last call at any minute. And it’s the party goers’ fault. Climate change is coming, if it’s not already here, and the harder we party and the more we act like we don’t care the more blame we deserve to take.

Coral Davenport (2018) of The New York Times, who wrote the article “Major Climate Report Describes a Strong Risk of Crisis as Early as 2040, describes a report by the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (Davenport, 2018, p. 1). The report suggests the possible of the Earth’s atmospheric temperature could go up by 1.5 degrees Celsius (Davenport, 2018, p. 1). A temperature increase like that could cause “worsening food shortages, wildfires, and a mass die-off of coral reefs as soon as 2040” (Davenport, 2018, p. 1). Among other horrific consequences of this kind of event include massive droughts, losing coastlines, increase in poverty worldwide, and trillions of dollars’ worth of damage (Davenport, 2018, p. 1). According to the report the cause of this type of temperature increase is manmade greenhouse gas emissions. And if we as the party people continue at the rate we are the party is going to be done sooner than we thought.

“The effects of today’s carbon dioxide in the atmosphere will be felt for centuries to come” (Schwartz, 2018, p. 1). John Schwartz (2018), in his article “Will We Survive Climate Change?”, points out the effects of manmade climate change due to greenhouse gas. Artic Sea Ice melting, heat waves, droughts, and flooding all mentioned in the article as negative effects of climate change (Schwartz, 2018, p. 1). However, Schwartz points out that there is hope, if we can control the atmosphere temperature rise to about 1.5 degrees Celsius, the amount of damage and human lives effected by climate change can be greatly reduced (schwartz nyt 2018). Unfortunately, where we stand now no nation with major industries is closed to meeting a 2 degree goal let alone a 1.5 degree goal (schwartz nyt 2018). According to the article there is progress being made though, by individuals and young people who have become leaders in the climate change fight (scwartz 2018 nyt). We may have not started the party, but we joined, and we started to ruin the party but we can also save the party and keep it going.

Richard Conniff, a writer who specializes in wildlife and human behavior, points out that to help save the planet we need to “demand significant action to reduce our dependence on fossil fuels and slow the rate of climate change” ( Conniff nyt 2018). In his article “Despairing on Earth Day? Read This”, Conniff explains how things are happening naturally that will help save the planet ( Conniff nyt 2018).  Conniff describes a conversation he had with Joe Watson, the director of Wildlife Conservation Society, where describes the four pillars on conservation:

  • A stabilization of human population
  • Increasingly concentrated in urban areas
  • Shared understanding of nature and the environment
  • Able to escape extreme poverty

All four of these pillars are happening right now, in the world as we speak, however “recovery will not happen if we cook the planet in the meantime” (Conniff nyt 2018). Things are happening to keep the party going, but we need to do more if we want it to never stop.

Climate change is real and we, as humans, are the main contributors. Green house gases that put carbon dioxide in the atmosphere are causing the earth’s temperature to rise at an alarming rate. In Davenports article, she mentions that scientists were originally focused on effect of a 2 degree rise, but now focusing on a 1.5 degree rise with same effects ( ndavenport nyt 2018) we are on a crash course for doom. If we don’t reduce green house gases, we are on a crash course for the police to come bust up our party. The world is going to be a completely different place than we imagine and sadly spring might not come, and nature wont tell us it’s time to party anymore.

Henry David Thoreau once said “We can never have enough nature”. As we stand today we are losing nature. Ice caps are melting, shorelines are disappearing, and animals are going extinct. But Schwartz and Conniff offer us hope. That we aren’t doomed. As humans migrate to urban areas animals are leaving protected areas and heading back to nature (scwartz nyt 2018). Technology is being created that is taking us away from coal and gas emitting energy. Even though we did some damage in our world party, and we are losing a little bit of nature because of what we did, is salvageable and with the right adjustments and advancement in the right direction we can make sure our party never stops. Like the old saying “Aint no party like a earth party because an earth party don’t stop”! Hopefully.

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Jump on a grenade

Throughout my life I was always ready. Ready to support the people close to me when needed. I was ready to take a bullet for someone. I would have jumped on a Grenade for the people I called my brothers. And I always thought ppl would do the same. But I was wrong, almost every time. But I’m not changing.

I don’t care how fake people are. I don’t care how much people turn their back on me. I don’t care that when it gets tough they bail. I’m not going to do that. That’s not who I am. I will continue to fight and I if someone needs me I’m gonna do what I can to help. Because that’s how it’s supposed to be. It’s not supposed to be easy, you’re supposed to fight for those you care about, and I’m not going to let others actions change my morals.

I find it funny because they sit there and tell you they understand. They listen and know what you go through. They hear the words but they don’t truly care. I used to think that maybe they just don’t understand, but I don’t think it’s that simple. I come to terms that they don’t want to understand. It’s easier for them. Bc when something happens, when you hit that low point, when you do something that they “don’t understand” and isn’t normal, it’s easier for them to bail. “Why did he do that, that’s not normal. Must be going crazy”. And then their gone.

It’s funny bc the same ones that disappear when you need them the most are the same ones that run to social media when a celebrity dies or commits suicide or overdoses. Talking about mental health and how bad it is and how we need to do something and be open. But when people close to them go through the same stuff what happens. They get a post? A text? A phone call? Some support? Nope. See it’s more work to be compassionate to those who may really need their help. It’s easy to be compassionate and look like you care when the person you “care” about is never going to ask you for help or actually need you.

I remember sitting in Iraq and Afghanistan and seeing post and thought and prayers for celebrities who died or whatever. Then I’m sitting there getting back to the computer after a mortar attack to no messages. Not post. I message some people, but I guess they were too busy. But they weren’t too busy to say how sad they were about Whitney Houston. I guess that should have been my first clue to bail. I hit rock bottom about 3.5 years ago, I had a select few people that stood by me through the darkest times, some bailed, some came back when I was “good” and some I never heard from again. I guess it’s my fault I put too much faith in people.

No matter how much this happens, even the little things that people do to me bc of selfishness, I’m not changing. See when you hit rock bottom, when you’ve lost hope, when you went to sleep with no caring about actually waking up, and then you do, and you get that second chance it changes you. I don’t care what anyone has done to me. I don’t care if you bailed when it was hard. If you need me I’m going to be there. Just ask. I owe to the people that stood by me when they shouldn’t have. I owe it to humanity, bc I’ve bailed on people. I’ve done exactly what I complained about in this post to people. I was one of those people. But I’m not now, I’ll jump on a grenade for you in a heartbeat. I’m not going anywhere.

Sixers!

So the Sixers can’t beat the Celtics. Really it’s really annoying. Mainly because I hate the Celtics. 0-3 this season and a lot more losses before this. I think I hate it just as much as Joel. But I really think that is about to change.

This is a whole new team.

So I never finished this. But now I’m back, and the Sixers finally beat the Celtics. It was cool honestly, good game I was really into it. Sometimes I have problems going to sleep, so I use medical marijuana. I was so pumped after the win I actually had to go back outback in order to fall asleep. I haven’t been that hype since the super bowl honestly.

But of course the Sixers has to sixer and lose 2 straight to the hawks and magic. Who actually aren’t bad teams, hawks have more talent than their record indicates and the magic might make the playoffs.

Bad losses happen in the nba. I understand that. And usually I don’t like to overreact to any one game. But last night against the magic, man I was mad. If you lose to the magic that’s fine, but it was like they didn’t care. It feels like the Sixers are a little too confident right now, thinking they can bullshit through a game and then just win at the end. Losing happens, but when it’s lack of effort is when I get mad.

Watching last night game after the 3rd quarter I honestly believe Brett should have empty his bench for the whole fourth. I know you don’t bench stars in the nba. 40% of Joel Embiid still gives you a better chance to win than bolden or Amir. But Joel looked like he was running at 10%. If you are going to lose because you are bullshitting and don’t care, I’d rather see you lose because you played shake and zhaire the whole 4th.

Although there was a lot to complain about with last night’s game I’m really not worried. They aren’t going to lose in the first round. I understand the season is a grind. I think the 3 seed is pretty much locked up. I’d rather not see them coast to the end but the talent on this team will get them to the second round.

I also don’t buy into this theory of ecf or bust. Or that if they don’t get past the second round the season is a failure or the coach should be fired. There is so many variables. Brand new team, trying to figure things out. I think there is more pressure on in the offseason and next season than this year. If they resign everyone and improve the bench a little with shake and zhaire and the draft. Then there is pressure. This is a gel time.

That being said, I think they get past the second round at least.

Is addiction a disease?

WHO THE FUCK CARES! Honestly this is the dumbest debate I’ve listened to in a long time. And the fact that so many people are so passionate about it not being a disease is concerning. It’s literally the most unproductive thing one can be passionate about. So addiction is considered a disease who cares, it changes nothing in your life. When you wake up in the morning and go about your day the fact that addiction is labeled a disease changes nothing about your day.

And stop with all the Bullshit argument, well it’s a choice not a disease. So people with lung cancer due to smoking isn’t a disease because that’s a choice. Heart disease. Forms of diabetes. All that argument does it make you sound dumb and really shows your true colors. Let’s be real the reason you are so passionate about it is because you want to built yourself up by looking down on people. That’s it. No other reason why this is such a huge debate.

So while you are sitting there at work looking forward to Friday night so you can go out and have beers with your friends, or while you’re crushing some Budweiser arguing about how addiction isn’t a disease and how calling it a disease isn’t fair to cancer patients (yup i already know your next argument) think about this. That cancer patient you feel so bad for, you think they are sitting there getting chemo all pissed off because addiction is considered a disease and so is cancer? Or do you think just maybe they don’t give a fuck about it and instead really just want to beat cancer and live life with friends family etc. Stop using others misfortunes and problems to push your bullshit narrative that is only a thing because you want to make yourself seem so much better than someone who struggles with addiction. Stop trying to tear people down to make yourself feel better about you.

I do believe addiction is a disease, and there is a scientific reason for it, but I’ll let you do your own research. Honestly if anyone reads this that disagrees with me you aren’t going to do the research. You’ll read a meme that helps push your narrative and then continue to go own arguing your point to make yourself feel better. And honestly I don’t give a shit about your opinion or trying to change it. Because just like my original argument it doesn’t fucking matter. I’m just hear to rant because all these holier than thou Facebook warriors out there trying to argue this stuff piss me off. Grow up. Take a look in the mirror and try to do something to make your life better, try doing something productive. Rant over

Regrets

In 2012 I was in Kandahar Afghanistan. It was my second deployment. Being a maintenance guy in country on f16s we don’t go outside the wire. We have computers and internet and ability to call home almost whenever we want. Work days could get hectic but it’s possible to find time to call home. After about 5 months one can get comfortable. Know I can call home whenever some days I just decided not to, because of pure laziness. I was 4 days from flying out of there. I figured I’d just call the day before I leave and the morning before take off and everything would be ok. But then in the middle of my sleep someone banged on my door hard. Scared the shit out of me I thought it was indirect fire that hit close. It was my buddy telling me I needed to call home. My mom picked up the phone, my dad was in the hospital and it didn’t look good. I packed a book bag and my first shirt found me a spot on a plane headed to Kuwait so I can fly to Vegas where my dad was living. Everyone worked so fast to get me out of there quickly but it didn’t matter he died before I even got out of Afghan.

I never talked to my dad, my best friend again. He never knew I made it home safe. I should have called home everyday. It’s only a couple minutes just to say hi and I loved him. I carried that cross around for a long time. Looking back now i went a little crazy. Between that and some hard time adjusting to being back home, I masked some shit with partying. Drinking coke girls anything to take my mind off it. I don’t think I really understood I was self medicating but it makes sense now. That was the biggest regret of my life, and I’ve done some dumb shit. Why the fuck didn’t I call home.

See what I’ve learned since I’ve become sober (mostly I’m prescribed marijuana but I’ll write about that another time) is you gotta let shit go. For years after I came home i was in such a fucked up place I was actually happy that my dad wasn’t here to see me like that. How fucked up is that I was actually happy my dad died. Crazy. But I’m starting to figure it out, the best thing I can do is let go of that regret and instead help my dad live on through me. Raise my son the way he raised me. My dad was always there for me I’m going to do the same for my son and daughter. I’m letting go of this regret and instead I’m gonna honor my dad in the way I live life now.

I can sit here and ramble off about 1000 regrets I have in my life. Everyone can everyone fucks up and everyone lives with some sort of guilt. But to me ranting about all the shit I fucked up is pointless. Mistakes, regrets, guilt it’s only bad if you don’t learn from it. A couple years ago, I partied like a rockstar in ac for a day and a half. I drove home fell asleep behind the wheel and wrecked my car. Couldn’t have been the worse thing to ever happen to me, and it sucked but I learned from it. I learned it’s no way to live life and that I was only hurting the people who loved me. So I stopped living that life, and became the man And father I am today. Outside of my son being born, that accident was the best thing to happen to me (that will become number 3 in feb when my daughter is born).

I’ve learned to train my mind and thing outside the box. Take what is given to me and make it better. Bad good or indifferent if learn from it and change for the good then nothing is truly bad. This is not an easy concept to learn, and I’ll most likely never perfect it, but I’ll tell you the more I learn to do it and apply it to life the happier I am. So bring it on, and I’m sure I’ll keep fucking up but I’m done making the same mistakes over and over again. I’m done carrying that load and I’m done being unhappy. I’m gonna beat regret because I’m gonna learn from it and my life and the people around me will be better for that.

In conclusion I love you dad. I made it home safe and I’ll carry on your legacy and honor through me and my kids. You’ll live on forever through us.

My Markelle Theory

The number one over all picked in the 2017 NBA Draft forgot how to shoot. Crazy isn’t it. Maybe not as crazy as it seems. There is an ongoing debate on wether this is mental or physical why he can’t shoot. Fultz’ agent or attorney whatever he is has made a hard stand that it is physical and not mental at all. I think that this point it most fans would say he is a “headcase” (which is a bullshit term referring to mental health likes it’s fucking 1920 but that’s a topic for another post).  Let’s put aside  fandom right now,  put emotions and prejudice aside and maybe come to the conclusion that it’s both, physical and mental.

Many are going to refuse to acknowledge that fultz was originally injured, that he was weak and soft and he just can’t make it in the league so he made up this “injury” last year. There is a solid chance that he may just not be good enough to play nba basketball, but I don’t believe it.  I do believe something happened to markelle’s shoulder and that the pain forced him to change his form. Whatever happen seemed like kelle was afraid to tell the team that he was hurt so instead he did what he had to do best to hide it, this really isn’t uncommon in young kids especially when there could be bad consequences.

The season starts and fultz is obviously in the national spotlight with this messed up jump shot and crazy high expectations for a 19 year old kid. When the world sees that he uncharastically “forgot” how to shoot it becomes one of the biggest and oddest stories in sports. The theories fly, espn fox sports every channel is talking fultz and his twitter mentions blow up. There were many supporting fans during this time but there was also many cruel and cynical fans that thought because they were behind a keyboard they can say all kinds of nasty things to him. After a few games they take him out’ diagnose him with some sort of shoulder injury and he is out the majority of the season.  So a quick summary, fultz is drafted first in the nba draft a real dream come true. Something happens and he hurts his shoulder. He changes his form to deal with the pain. Comes on the national stage of the nba and can’t shoot anymore and his form looks atrocious. The sports media world takes up the story, he is called a bust and a headcase and soft on national tv on almost a daily basis. Sports radio goes nuts and callers say all kinds of mean and nasty things about him. People on twitter and Instagram crush him and attack him like a bunch of cyber bullies. Pile all this bullshit on a 19 year old kid plus the fact that his dream of playing in the nba just got put on hold and possible lost forever. To me that seems like a pretty traumatic experience for a young kid. Markelle is experiencing PTSD.

I know it sounds crazy. He has never been to war or almost been blown up. But Ptsd isn’t just for veterans. Rape victims commonly have ptsd from their experience. Same with domestic violence. Pretty much anyone can developer symptoms of ptsd from a traumatic event in their life. Ptsd anxiety mental health it doesn’t discriminate. Doesn’t matter if you are Medal of Honor winner, or joe smo on the street. It doesn’t even care if you are the number 1 overall pick in the nba. For some people when they go through shit it changes them.

To me this all makes sense. As young kid when stuff like this happens it can cause serious change in your mental state. And it doesn’t mean that you can see it in everyday life. Subconsciously anxiety can be there without a person or the people around him really noticing. When we watch kelle play, what is his only flaw? Set shots and foul shots. The pull up off the screen is money. He gets to rim, runs baseline to baseline and dunks on someone. Even the 3 he hit on Zach Levine’s face. What do all these things have in common, there is no time for his brain to think, it’s all reaction. But when he is all by himself and the defender is 6 feet off him daring him to sleep, even for a split second his brain recalls that whole traumatic situation and his anxiety sets in even if he doesn’t realize it. So it’s natural for him to react when the anxiety comes and just go to what he is comfortable with, putting the ball on the floor and attacking.

So here is the biggest problem with this situation. His situation is still going to be looked at negatively, like he is soft or mentally weak. And his camp and agent and people around him refuse to acknowledge he may have some problems are nothing but enablers. The more they blame it on injury or whatever they want, the more he is never going to face the problem and the likelihood of he being well again is slim to none. By the way as someone who lives with ptsd and depression, it can cause physical pain, the brain is a crazy muscle. The saddest part about this is it’s bigger than basketball because when basketball is done for him it will only get worse in his life.

But the good thing is its beatable, I’m living proof. I went through hell and back, and now honestly I’m mentally better than I’ve ever been in my life. And I have other vets I know and talk to that have done the same thing. First step is admitting and acknowledging and then getting the help needed. And the craziest part about all this is that it’s ok to have these problems. It doesn’t make you weak or soft and if you think it does I’ll introduce you to a dozens guys and girl that deal with it that will make you look like a baby back bitch.

At the end of the day the best for him is to get better. I’m not a doctor or anything close enough to really make a firm statement. In fact I have no real credential to write this about him. I’m just going off my life experience. At the end of the day I think we all want kelle to get healthy and be ok. And honestly I hope I’m wrong. I hope it’s just an injury and physical therapy will get him back to where he needs to be. But if I’m not I hope he realizes it before it’s too late or someone around him does. As big of a Sixers fan as I am, I really don’t care if he never plays again I would love him too I just want to see him healthy before it’s too late. I’ve lost too many people and seen too many stories of suicide and drugs. I’m in no way implying that markelle does drugs or is suicidal, I just know what this kind of mental state can bring a person to do.

So markelle do what you have to do to get better. And I home at some point IF this is the problem someone around you can open your eyes and help you. and if possible get back on the court and prove all these hating ass motherfuckers wrong.

PSA I am in no way diagnosing this. I am not trying to say that this is the actual case. If the doctor says he is injured I’m not going to argue. I am just trying to give an alternate perspective. This is my opinion and my opinion only.

Today I almost cried

I’m a grown ass man. That’s my favorite saying. I think I’m pretty tough been through some shit. If you ask anyone who knows me I don’t show much emotion. Today I almost cried by myself in my car. I can count on 1 hand the amount of times I cried in my adult life. Ranging from when my dad died to when the eagles won the fucking super bowl and I picked up my son in pure joy. When my son was born he came out blue, and would cry or respond. I held back my tears and fear to stay strong for his mom. Today I tried to hold it back too but it was tough.

If you know my story, I got really banged up and wrecked my car when my son was about 3 months old. I never had a car seat for him in my own car. I never drove him to school. He has never seen me drive before. He is almost 3. Today I drove him to school, we listened to and old punk mix cd I had from high school and he had a blast. I dropped him off at school and walked out to my car like it was the norm. I sat in the car for about 3 minutes holding back tears of overwhelming joy. Then headed my way off to the gym.

Truthfully I just fed you guys a bunch of bullshit. I cried my ass off. And I’m not afraid to admit It anymore. And if you think I’m soft for doing it and admitting it, I’m 6’3″ 250, you can come find me and call me soft to my face. Lol I’ll tell you damn right I’m soft and I like it and don’t give a fuck what you think.